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Published November 26, 2015 by Robyn


I never thought I’d be back here writing. Back in the same room, same boarding house but minus the scary boyfriend. Why I left Sydney for awhile in the first place.

So where am I in my life? Not sure. Still searching – for what? Some sign to show me I am on the right path. Well I guess for that to happen one needs to actually be on the path in the first place, not hiding in the bushes on the side, too scared to come out till the time is right. Well time’s a-wastin’ and I better get myself walking down that road before it’s too late.

Hmmm, maybe a cheerful post next time?


V x


Greetings mes amis!

I have recently been fortunate enough to have had some creative opportunities pretty much fall into my lap. I take this as a sign I am on the right track. Finally. I won’t go into detail yet as from experience I have learned that this is a surefire way to shoot myself in the foot!

What I will say though, is that great opportunities don’t always come cheap. So to this end I have decided to reanimate Paperdoll Cabaret, my Etsy shop (It Lives!). It will be a little different this time than before since my focus has shifted (as far as my need to make stuff goes) from making jewellery to painting. I am currently in the midst of a little¬†flurry of activity designing what I hope will become cool items to put up. I’ll let y’all know when I’m up and running again. I’m going away on Friday for a few days and while this won’t really interrupt the design process, it will definitely cause a bit of a delay in actual production. But hopefully it won’t be too long…. to be honest I can’t afford it to be. I’m not going to miss the boat this time ūüėČ

On a different note, we had great fun last Wednesday (our 31st) dressing up and giving out candy to the local trick or treaters. In Australia (being in the Southern Hemisphere), and in the context it’s celebrated here, it is not a serious celebration. That, I believe would be the 2nd May here. However kids these days are really getting into it and it was¬†so much fun to watch their little faces (and not so little, there were quite a few older kids in the mix) light up when¬†I opened the door in¬†my pointy hat with my “pet spider” dangling from my finger. It was¬†though the chocolate bars I handed them were priceless. It was wonderful! And it’s all harmless, healthy fun. However, and there always seems to be a however, there are a lot of people around here who don’t agree and get quite upset about the whole thing. Even some people who work in shops that sell Halloween-related stuff. They can get quite snotty when you buy fake spiders etc. Go figure! I was told by some of the parents who were walking around with their children that they had received a frosty reception and worse from “Halloween Haters”. To all those people I blow a big, fat RASPBERRY! Don’t take it all so seriously! We put a spider on the gate to show that we were “Halloween friendly” and will continue to do something along these lines each year. Viva Halloween Australian style!!!

I am still unable to post any of my own photos here. I think there must be something wrong with my account settings. I can’t believe I am quite this hopeless. Then again….. ūüôā I will contact support through the week and see if they can help me sort this out. I’m not a great photographer but there have been a few photos I would’ve liked to share with you.

Oh yeah. A few days ago I purchased my first piece of jewellery from Shalottlilly. It’s currently away being photographed and it has to travel all the way from Texas so I’m not sure when it will arrive, but I can’t wait! This lady’s work is beautiful. Check out¬†the Shalottlilly¬†Facebook page to see for yourself.

And last, but certainly not least I hope anyone who has been affected by hurricane Sandy is ok now. I really hope you all stayed safe.

Take care.

Until next time

V ‚̧

A Chip Off The Old (Writer’s) Block

Published October 22, 2012 by Robyn
The discouraged Nenene suffering from writer's...

The discouraged Nenene suffering from writer’s block continues to lament the disappearance of Yomiko (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Hey folks,

Yep, I’ve been suffering from the dreaded writer’s block!

It’s not that there hasn’t been plenty happening – plenty to write about. It’s just that I can’t seem to get the words out of my head and onto the page.¬† On several occasions I’ve been close to calling it quits (“who am I to expect people to be interested in what I have to say”) and blah-dy blah-dy blah-dy. But the truth is it does me good to write. It helps me¬†keep from¬†bottling everything up and whether the results end up here, or in a song, or on a scrap of paper, it’s all good. But it’s just not happening for me lately.

Today I put up two (very)¬†short posts on Facebook and it got me thinking. What if I just start publishing little snippets, and I put them here rather than fb? So that’s what I’m gonna do – just chip away, chip away at that big ol’ block – start seeing the forest AND the trees. Wish me luck!

V ‚̧

Husbands As Status Symbols?

Published October 2, 2012 by Robyn

Hello People,

This is just a short rant. I write it at the risk of upsetting a few people but this is really getting up my nose! Since when did what someone’s husband do as a job¬†become a status symbol? “My husband is a blah-blah. what does yours do?” It’s a really bitchy little thing that seems to be creeping into social media.

I don’t care if your husband is a Tinker, Tailor, Soldier, Sailor, or Willy-Fucking-Wonka for that matter! The real issues are (should be): Is he a good man? Does he take care of you and your babies?And the biggie, Is he honest? If he is these things AND a Space Ninja well good for him. But that don’t impress me at all.

Has anyone else seen these kind of posts? And if so, what do you think about them?

Love V ‚̧

The Sounds of Silence

Published September 9, 2012 by Robyn



Love (Photo credit: praram)


When I came up here a couple of weeks ago what struck me most of all was the silence. After living right on King Street in Newtown (and anyone who knows the area – I’m talking Newtown in Sydney – will understand just how busy and noisy it is), I was not used to the quiet. For the first few nights here the quiet actually felt like a physical presence, thick and heavy. Now, a couple of weeks on I’m starting to recognise the sounds within the silence. I’ve taken to laying in bed after I wake just listening – something I could not have done just a short time ago. I used to have to get up as soon as I woke, before the thoughts kicked in, otherwise it would feel like the air would get sucked out of the room and I’d start sweating and shaking. How far I’ve come in two weeks!

Now within the silence I can hear the different bird calls both near and far away, and other sounds Рsome recognisable, others less so, and I lay there just breathing and listening.

I feel alive again.

Love V ‚̧

Greetings From The Sunny Mid-North Coast!

Published September 2, 2012 by Robyn


It’s been a week since I last wrote here. My plan was to write every couple of days or so, but the week has somehow slipped by without me noticing. To be perfectly honest I don’t have anything wise, witty or even particularly interesting to talk about, but

here’s a bit of a roundup of the past week. I have more pictures to add, but me being technologically ignorant, I can’t seem to get them loaded here. This one was hard enough! What I will do is go through all the support stuff and load up photos through the week.

The photo above is my Mum and I having lunch at the Boatshed. It is on a jetty kind of thing. There are boats moored and you are able to feed the fishies. We went there after seeing “The Sapphires” at the local movie theatre, which is an old family run business with a lot of the old fixtures still there. It is quite beautiful inside.

We went to Taree on Wednesday. My Mum was born there and went to Taree Public School (built 1902) – photo to come. That day we had lunch at a tea garden at Morelands (I have photos from here as well). I had a burger with “the works” – the works alright, complete with a skewer and a stalk of parsley sticking out of the top like a tree. It was huge but I managed to get through it all apart from one side of the bun! Piggy, piggy me, but it were yum! We met a lady(who’s name I am ashamed to say I don’t remember) and her dog Sassy, a beautiful black Kelpie.

The visit my Mum had to make to the doctor turned out ok. She has a problem, but one that can be managed easily. Yay! I had a fright when the doc called her name and when she got up I heard the doctor ask if someone was with her. Yikes!!! She is really independant and said yes she did but no, she didn’t need anyone to come in with her. I spent most of the visit standing outside the door trying to hear what was going on. The other patients must’ve thought I was a nutter!

We’ve been doing lots of ordinary things, watching girly movies(which my Mum loves), taking the dog for a walk, all that regular kind of stuff which I haven’t had a chance to do for years.

On a personal note, I really don’t think I am going to go back to Sydney. I’m sold on living close to the water, further away from the stinking rat race.

Well that’s about all I gotz to say. I will try and work out how to get the photos on properly. I see so many beautiful blogs with photos, I know there’s a way.

Oh, it is also Father’s Day here in Australia. “Happy Father’s Day Dad!” Miss you a lot.

Till next time

V ‚̧


Published August 25, 2012 by Robyn


I caught a train yesterday (approximately 6 1/2 hours) up to visit my Mum on the mid north coast. It is a multipurpose visit. I wanted to spend a bit of time with my Mum, plus I want to be around when she gets some biopsy results next week. But I also realised that I am very unhealthy right now. I am not in good shape at all. Here there is clear air (I think this is why always for the first day or two I’m here I get dizzy spells – the air is a lot cleaner here and my lungs are used to sucking in dirty city air). Plus I needed to put some physical space between myself and some complicated situations in Sydney. I need clear space to think. I was digging myself a dirty little city grave. I can’t believe I have been treating myself so poorly.

So, I’m taking it easy for a couple of days. Already I have spent the morning watching pelicans wait for the fishing boats to come back, done some Op shopping (I bought a dress, a¬†top, and an antique-looking necklace, all for $7.50! Yay me!), done a bit of harmless, friendly flirting with the man in the cafe bookshop, and caught up with my uncle (the husband of my very favourite aunty-she is no longer with us, unfortunately).

I spoke with my brother on the phone (he lives in Nth Carolina)- I don’t get to speak with him much as I only have a cell phone, so it is always nice to actually here his voice.

There are some Blue Tongue Lizards that live in the yard here. There is Louis, the three-legged big daddy one who lives under the house. Lisa who lives under the old barbecue, and various babies when it’s the season – there’s some little ‘uns there now. Plus, there seems to be a new man on the scene – a rival for Louis. Poor Louis, apparently Lisa and her new fella were canoodling up there the other day and poor old Louis was off a little ways, all on his lonesome. Louis, maybe you need to woo her. Bring her up some tasty snails or something!

I haven’t got any pix yet from up here yet. I tried to take some from the train yesterday, but the window reflection is on all of them, but I will take pix in the days to come and put them up.

Well, now I am going to put my feet up, and read a book.

Take care.

V ‚̧