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Greetings mes amis!

I have recently been fortunate enough to have had some creative opportunities pretty much fall into my lap. I take this as a sign I am on the right track. Finally. I won’t go into detail yet as from experience I have learned that this is a surefire way to shoot myself in the foot!

What I will say though, is that great opportunities don’t always come cheap. So to this end I have decided to reanimate Paperdoll Cabaret, my Etsy shop (It Lives!). It will be a little different this time than before since my focus has shifted (as far as my need to make stuff goes) from making jewellery to painting. I am currently in the midst of a little flurry of activity designing what I hope will become cool items to put up. I’ll let y’all know when I’m up and running again. I’m going away on Friday for a few days and while this won’t really interrupt the design process, it will definitely cause a bit of a delay in actual production. But hopefully it won’t be too long…. to be honest I can’t afford it to be. I’m not going to miss the boat this time 😉

On a different note, we had great fun last Wednesday (our 31st) dressing up and giving out candy to the local trick or treaters. In Australia (being in the Southern Hemisphere), and in the context it’s celebrated here, it is not a serious celebration. That, I believe would be the 2nd May here. However kids these days are really getting into it and it was so much fun to watch their little faces (and not so little, there were quite a few older kids in the mix) light up when I opened the door in my pointy hat with my “pet spider” dangling from my finger. It was though the chocolate bars I handed them were priceless. It was wonderful! And it’s all harmless, healthy fun. However, and there always seems to be a however, there are a lot of people around here who don’t agree and get quite upset about the whole thing. Even some people who work in shops that sell Halloween-related stuff. They can get quite snotty when you buy fake spiders etc. Go figure! I was told by some of the parents who were walking around with their children that they had received a frosty reception and worse from “Halloween Haters”. To all those people I blow a big, fat RASPBERRY! Don’t take it all so seriously! We put a spider on the gate to show that we were “Halloween friendly” and will continue to do something along these lines each year. Viva Halloween Australian style!!!

I am still unable to post any of my own photos here. I think there must be something wrong with my account settings. I can’t believe I am quite this hopeless. Then again….. 🙂 I will contact support through the week and see if they can help me sort this out. I’m not a great photographer but there have been a few photos I would’ve liked to share with you.

Oh yeah. A few days ago I purchased my first piece of jewellery from Shalottlilly. It’s currently away being photographed and it has to travel all the way from Texas so I’m not sure when it will arrive, but I can’t wait! This lady’s work is beautiful. Check out the Shalottlilly Facebook page to see for yourself.

And last, but certainly not least I hope anyone who has been affected by hurricane Sandy is ok now. I really hope you all stayed safe.

Take care.

Until next time

V ❤


A Chip Off The Old (Writer’s) Block

Published October 22, 2012 by Robyn
The discouraged Nenene suffering from writer's...

The discouraged Nenene suffering from writer’s block continues to lament the disappearance of Yomiko (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Hey folks,

Yep, I’ve been suffering from the dreaded writer’s block!

It’s not that there hasn’t been plenty happening – plenty to write about. It’s just that I can’t seem to get the words out of my head and onto the page.  On several occasions I’ve been close to calling it quits (“who am I to expect people to be interested in what I have to say”) and blah-dy blah-dy blah-dy. But the truth is it does me good to write. It helps me keep from bottling everything up and whether the results end up here, or in a song, or on a scrap of paper, it’s all good. But it’s just not happening for me lately.

Today I put up two (very) short posts on Facebook and it got me thinking. What if I just start publishing little snippets, and I put them here rather than fb? So that’s what I’m gonna do – just chip away, chip away at that big ol’ block – start seeing the forest AND the trees. Wish me luck!

V ❤

Winter of Discontent

Published August 7, 2012 by Robyn
English: Khansar in cold winter

English: Khansar in cold winter (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Winter is always tough for me. I don’t know whether it’s circulation or what, but I feel the cold really quickly and it hurts! (I’m imagining someone reading this in a country that does really get cold thinking ” She doesn’t know what cold is!”)

In sync with the temperature dropping so does my mood, but my anxiety levels go up. A lot. It’s ridiculous. Then my immune system can’t handle it and I get sick. And so it goes until the weather starts to get warm again. I usually just batten down the hatches and wait for Spring, only venturing out when I have to. I’m so used to it it’s something I’ve almost come to accept – my Underworld vacation. Not all vacations are fun.

This Winter though has been particularly difficult. Many (too many) things have happened that have made me actually have to face myself (I usually manage to wriggle out of that somehow). Not this Winter though. I haven’t had that “luxury”. And I haven’t coped well.

BUT I think there may be a bit of Spring in the air these last few days, even though it’s still cold and the August winds haven’t really kicked in yet. We can only hope.


Shark In The Water!!!

Published August 4, 2012 by Robyn


This was another question I answered in Plinky. The question was “What is a fear you’ve overcome?” Once again I wasn’t able to post it here directly. There is a problem but I can’t see where it is. Anyway:

Shark In The Water

  • This is a very silly fear.

    Ha! This is about a fear that I have kind of overcome. Overcome as far as I can write about it, but not overcome enough to be able to load up any images of my nemesis. For a reason I have never been able to fathom, as in I have never had any related scary experiences, I have been terrified of sharks! Terrified enough to have fainted when suddenly confronted with an image of a shark. When I was around 10 years old while at swimming training I became paralysed and had to be rescued(kinda half swim half being dragged to the edge) because I had somehow managed to convince myself that there was a shark in the pool. Anyway, these days, with a lot of concentration, watering eyes and pounding heart I am able to at least look at sharks as long as I am prepared for it and it doesn’t look too scary. I have also walked through Sydney Aquarium twice now, once when my brother was visiting from the U.S. and once with my son. He held my hand real tight and kept saying “It’s all right Mum, if you need to you can squeeze my hand really really tight.” Bless 🙂 So what I am finding is as I’m getting older it’s getting easier to face the monster (in fact sharks are really beautiful, streamlined creatures). I still react (scream, knees go from under me) if I’m faced with one unexpectedly, but mostly now I’m good. Really.

    What are you scared of?

    Till next time

    V ❤