Awake AGAIN most of the night! After several nights of little sleep I’m starting to feel that silly, super-sensitive “don’t look at me the wrong way or I’ll cry” feeling. However, I did manage to sort through some of the tangled mess. Here is a bit of what I’ve(kinda) worked through:-
Music – This has always been my “raison d’etre“. I never chose music, music chose me. But what I have chosen is to remain faithful this time – not get scared and back off. The thoughts that accompany this are “Violetta, you just suck!” But truth is, I don’t. I am actually very good.
Family – I am in regular contact with my two oldest daughters for which I am more grateful than you could ever imagine. My younger daughter and son still think I’m a scary, loopy nutcase = (yes, several peeps helped them arrive at that, steam coming out of my ears as I write this) BUT, I’ve realised, they are now old enough to think for themselves and draw their own conclusions (21 and 19 as I write this). I am in contact also with my Mum and my sister and brother and their families, Yay! They are very patient with me as I am the worst at “keeping in touch”. And I love them all!
Love – Walking through a minefield or playing Russian Roulette are safer passtimes than falling in love, yet we continue to strive.
Friends – Trust is the big issue, working on that.
So, these are some of the things I thought about last night waiting for sleep – please Sandman, can I make a booking for tonight?